"I = LOVE = LIFE ...KINGSIZE!!!!"

Status Quo!...

2009-10-14T17:17:00.002+05:30

Can I stay HERE?. Or move on?....
Should we, or not...?
What Was, That IS...will it be ?....
Let Me be, Let US be...
In the NOW, Future is but a mystery!
I am, yes - Content...
why fret, then for what will be?
'Status Quo' is good enough....
what will be, will be.....!

ExPeCtAtIonS & MoRe....

2009-02-01T16:44:00.001+05:30

All seemed fine and there’s a broad smile on my face. Suddenly, something inside bothering, and why would it?? Why should it?? Trying to decipher... I let it, thought it would subside. I knew I was happy, I knew I had done it....OOuch again! but yet...it nudged me, bugged me, din leave me.

It was my day, a special day...I had worked hard for it...And they knew it, they know me. Just one sms or one call would make it so much more meaningful. I waited, it did not come. I said,“nevermind, maybe it’s not important enough for them, doesn’t mean, anything”.But, then why did it not leave me? Why should I care? God, it still is bothering!! And that is why this post!

Expectations and More....

A simple ‘hi’ when u see me around

If words are too much, a Smile would do...

When, I m lost....ask me why

Don look at ur diary, before we have to meet

Or forget to call, when I want you to wish me luck!

Small gestures, have large meanings...

Am I expecting too much, if I only expect you to read??

RaNdOm LiFe ....

2008-12-07T16:18:00.005+05:30

Random....

People, Hidden Friends

Random....

Meetings, Flew the Time

Random....

Crowd, felt the Void

Random....

Chaos, forgotten Tranquil

Random....

Talks, knows the Silence

Random...

Romance, Sweet Fights

Random....

Eyes, met with Love

Random

Coincidence, Called LIFE!!

I , He aND Us!!!

2008-11-12T18:00:00.004+05:30

Yes, I am back!...I missed u too - BLOG :). Though, u'll be jealous to know, that I went on a VACATION!.
We were I, HE and US :p
US = My two daughters and moi!!. I couldn't believe I was one of them, forgot that I was there to tame them, but I decided to spoil them. And HE, spoiled Me in return!!:))) Thankyou for
being U and letting us BE crazzy, lazzy and jazzy!!I feel overwhelmed, and rejeuvenated....only hoping that I did not deplete u of ur senses:))
What a Vacation, uhh uhh....let me exaggerate, I'd say an ECSTATIC GETAWAY!... I haven't been able to sleep since we've got back, I loved being a Child again, with U AND THEM:))

Thank you - MY FAMILY!

I LOVE YOU !!!

"Without His love I can do nothing, with His love there is nothing I cannot do.."

'FrIeNdShIp' - Khalil Gibran

2008-10-13T18:36:00.006+05:30

" ReFleCtIoNs!":

And a youth said,
- Speak to us of Friendship!
And he answered, saying:
Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with love
and reap with thanksgiving.

And he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger,
and you seek him for peace.

When your friend speaks his mind you fear
not the "nay" in your own mind,
nor do you withhold the "ay".
And when he is silent your heart ceases
not to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, all thoughts,
all desires, all expectations are born and shared,
with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, you grieve not;
For that which you love most
in him may be clearer in his absence,
as the mountain to the climber
is clearer from the plain.

And let there be no purpose in friendship
save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the disclosure
of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth:
and only the unprofitable is caught.

And let your best be for your friend
that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need,
but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship
let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things
the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.

-Khalil Gibran.

Pic source:http://www.betterphoto.com/gallery/dynoGall2.asp?catID=562

"AaJ JaAne Ki Zid Na KaRO "- Guitar version

2008-08-24T19:46:00.010+05:30

Sunday usually is a soulful day, where MOMENTS (hmmm.. I decide NOT to dramatise them ) touch me in the form of music and songs. And there I was .... I found myself browsing through the lyrics and U tube of the song 'Aaj Jaane Ki Zid Na Karo ' a song sung by Pakistani singer ' Farida Khanum.
I came across an interesting u tube, where a girl tries her hands with this song on a guitar, Pls pardon her sense of the singer as she passes it off to Begum Akhtar :P.
I m also adding the original version here, as it is where MY HEART trully lies :)....Also, an English Lyric translation for my 'Angrez' Cousins and Friends, help them feel the depth of the song!( Pls retain some patience as the video downloads)
Enjoy!!!...

"Aaj jaane ki zid na karo!"

The ORIGINAL version :

Lyrcis : Source http://oldpoetry.com/opoem/63904-Fayyaz-Hashmi-Aaj-Jaane-Ki-Zid-Na-Karo

Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Yunhi pehloo mein baithe raho
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Hai mar jaayenge, hum to lut jaayenge
Aisi baatein kiya na karo
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo

Tum hi socho zara, kyun na roke tumhe
Jaan jaati hai jab uth ke jaate ho tum
Tumko apni qasam jaan-e-jaan
Baat itni meri maan lo
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Yunhi pehloo mein baithe raho
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo

Waqt ki qaid mein zindagi hai magar
Chand ghadiyan yehi hain jo aazad hain
Inko khokar mere jaan-e-jaan
Umr bhar na taraste raho
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo

Kitna maasoom rangeen hai yeh sama
Husn aur ishq ki aaj mein raaj hai
Kal ki kisko khabar jaan-e-jaan
Rok lo aaj ki raat ko
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Yunhi pehloo mein baithe raho
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo

Translation-

Don't insist on leaving today
Keep sitting beside me.
Don't insist on leaving today
else I shall die, I shall be looted.
Please don't talk like this.
Don't insist on leaving today.

Give it a thought,
why shouldn't stop you?
When you leave,
life goes out of me.
For your own sake, beloved
Just listen to this one plea,
don't insist on leaving today,
keep sitting beside me.
Don't insist on leaving today.

My life is trapped in time's bars,
just a few solitary moments are free.
And if you lose them too, my beloved,
you shall keep craving forever.
Don't insist on leaving today,
keep sitting beside me.
Don't insist on leaving today.

What an innocent hueful meeting this is
of beauty and love, they rule today.
Who knows what lies in tomorrow,
Let's make this night stand still.
Don't insist on leaving today,
keep sitting beside me.
Don't insist on leaving today.

CoMfOrTabLy NuMb

2008-08-14T15:08:00.008+05:30

Yes, I've been in my comfort zone lately ...actually, I thought I talked too much, and was way too vocal of every emotion that I felt. I decided to stay quiet untill I came across something which suggested 'The Power of EMOTIONS'. And to my rescue, the matter said that people who do not voice their emotions, who rather escape and do not witness how they feel to the fullest are emotionally NUMB!

"Thank God, I told myself, someone understands how I feel! " And who wants to be NUMB ?..Nah, not me! And there I start to Yap..to the universe :)
I know I m ONLY thirty! ( oops, yes i said 'ONLY' )but thats how I FEEL EMOTIONALLY:!And I 've come to believe that the ones that are emotionally expressive
are the ones who do live life to the fullest! My BEST friend Jini says so rightly '" ONE LIFE,AV "!! Ok, all I m trying is, to suggest that its not such a bad thing to EXPRESS, infact why pent up ? How much does it take to Feel,Acknowledge, and Release the triggers? The only risk factor is that the Angry emotions will Break a Head or TWO :p! But the Happy ones will bring more happiness ,smiles ,and more LOVE! ..Worth it, right?
Hence, I hereby decide and call upon ALL who resonate with me ...that lets shake ourselves and Not stay COMFORTABLY NUMB! EXPRESS..EXPRESS ...EXPRESS ....:)
Hope u've covered health insurance though :))!!

Here is a song for those who are..comfortably numb!

In ThE EnD ...

2008-07-25T13:14:00.004+05:30

As a child, I loved to indulge my self in the fantasy of Fairy Tales ... build my world around them. As time flew, in some corner of my mind they dwelled, and I forgot that the seed of my fantasy world was sown, and it would reap. My world became a reflection of my fairly tale stories compelling me to believe in a parallel world! But like every story has an end, I feared that mine would come to cease..and it did ...only to unfold itself into a beam of Reality . The child in me grew into an adult , witnessing the bitter truths of life, from the pain of sweet romance to a real marriage ...to being a mother ....yet striving to be an individual . Life, so full of Opportunities, is by default a CHOICE that one makes ..My story of fairly tales did come to an end, but brought me close to LIFE who with its every end brings about a NEW BEGINING!
And now..I still see a new story ( a world of fantasy ) in the eyes of my kids!.. wonder y mine came to an end? am I no longer a Child ...atleast at heart?

TuMse Se Hi ....( Because of U)

2008-07-23T12:30:00.005+05:30

" THE PLEASURE OF UNION...IS IN ITS SEEKING !"

chorus:

a-aa, a-aa… a-aa…
a-aa, a-aa… a-aa….)

na hai ye, paana…
(neither does this mean that I have got you…)
na khona, bhi hai…
(nor does it mean, that I have lost you…)
tera na hona, jaane…
(don’t know why even in your absence, my love…)
kyun… hona, bhi hai…
(seems like you are present everywhere around me…)

tumse hi, din hota hai…
(my day begins with your thoughts…)
surmai, shaam aati hai…
(and the dawns are made beautiful with you…)
tumse hi… tumse hi…
(with you… just with you…)

har ghadi, saans aati hai
(each moment, I breathe for you…)
zindagi, kehlaati hai
(each moment makes my life…)
tumse hi.. tumse hi…
(with you… just for you…)

na hai ye, paana…
na khona, bhi hai…
tera na hona, jaane…
kyun… hona, bhi hai…

a-aa, a-aa… a-aa…
a-aa, a-aa… a-aa….

aankhon mein aankhein, teri…
(my eyes are lost in yours…)
baahon mein baahein, teri…
(my arms embrace you in them…)
mera na mujhmein, kuch rahaa…
(nothing seems to be mine anymore)
hua kya…
(don’t know what happened…)

baaton mein baatein, teri…
(even my talks are full of you…)
raatein saugaatein, teri…
(my nights seem to be a gift from you…)
kyun tera sab ye, ho gaya…
(why has my everything turned yours…)
hua kya…
(don’t know what happened…)

main kahin bhi jaata hun…
(anywhere i might go…)
tumse hi mil jaata hun…
(seems like i meet you…)
tumse hi… tumse hi…
(it’s about you… just about you)

shor mein khaamoshi hai…
(there seems silence amidst noise…)
thodi si behoshi hai…
(a little bit of dizzyness prevails…)
tumse hi… tumse hi…
(it’s about you… just about you)

a-aa, a-aa… a-aa…
a-aa, a-aa… a-aa….

aadha sa waada, kabhi…
(half-a-promise, sometimes…)
aadhe se zaada, kabhi…
(and sometimes, more than a half…)
jee chaahe kar lun, iss tarah…
(my heart wants to make with you…)
wafaa ka…
(a promise of loyalty…)

chhode na chhoote, kabhi…
(this bond can’t be left, even willingly…)
tode na toote, kabhi…
(it can’t be broken, even if I try…)
jo dhaaga tumse, judd gayaa..
(the thread which draped us as one…)
wafaa ka…
(the thread of commitment…)

main tera sirmaaya hun…
(I am indebted to you…)
jo bhi main, bunn paaya hun…
(for everything that I have achieved…)
tumse hi… tumse hi….
(is because of you… because of you…)

raaste, mil jaate hain…
(I find my ways by itself…)
manzilein, mil jaati hain…
(I find my destinations, so easily now…)
tumse hi… tumse hi…
(it’s because of you… because of you…)

na hai ye, paana…
na khona, bhi hai…
tera na hona, jaane…
kyun… hona, bhi hai…

a-aa, a-aa… a-aa…
a-aa, a-aa… a-aa….

In the HEART of HEARTS!

2008-07-21T20:08:00.006+05:30

Everything, that we are attached to ( apparent) is connected to our Heart . Name it... Friends, Spouse, Children, Family, Memories, Dreams and materially speaking all that is an extension of US. The Heart, so fragile is burdened by the strings of it all...and is entwined by the web of our created emotions . A lil' trigger, and falls a tear that comes straight from the heart! And then, there is a flood of the pent up hurt ...the unspoken words and painful memories ...sometimes its the void of those sweet moments which now only exist in nostalgia, the echo of those long conversations which u can hear when u lay alone...a blend of highs and lows, waiting to corner the Heart. Yes, U are brutally on your own, listening to the mourning of ur own cries, burning in the fire of ur own ashes...living with a Heart, without its Beat. Why would u stay there?...why would u just be ? The Heart pleads to be healed...to be loved , to feel secure! The Heart urges, to LIVE again, to smile, to play!.Do not dismiss what it tells u, it whispers to self "Know that u can ...MEND UR OWN HEART!"

HoLd On !

2008-07-18T17:26:00.005+05:30

It's rather easy to give up...
But I learn to stay Coz of you .
I want to escape into my shell...
But I dare to witness along with you.
Love isn't a Bed of Roses ....
But the thorns are its sweet Pain.
The Journey that has begun,
Will 'HOLD ON' till its End!

LIVE or DIE !!!

2008-07-14T15:02:00.007+05:30

What happens when Life compels u to make a choice? What happens when one is at a threshold of a ' DO or DIE' situation? The voice says...'LET GO' .. But, its difficult, it kills ...it is binding! Just cant let go! The war begins, there is conflict with Destiny, with the self ,with others . Will it change? Will it be better? Only hope that remains is the 'HOPE'. Choice - that is made is to LIVE , to be Centred , to spread the wings! Irony - to Fly , one has to leave the Ground. Willing I m, 'Gut' being the backbone ...I decide to LIVE ...but a part of me must DIE!

A SuNNy DaYyy :)

2008-07-06T16:20:00.005+05:30

A Song can lift a mood, make u cry, make u laugh, will motivate, get u nostalgic, can fill ur senses. This one does it all ...and makes my 'SUNDAY' a 'SUNNY DAY '! :))

Its BeAUtiFUl !

2008-07-05T09:08:00.008+05:30

U happened to me , am I dreaming?
Or is it mystical that our fates have brushed?
Opposties attract ,sure they do ..I know its True 'coz of you.
You stay you , and let me be ME ...
Yet, lets yearn to endure US .
For the Beauty in Love is to Accept ... the Vice and the Virtues .
I do not claim to be perfect , I do not promise Forever...
Although, I m willing to take a Chance , for Life is BEAUTIFUL together !!

I Luvvv CraZZZyy!!!!

2008-06-30T15:20:00.002+05:30

Here is how I go 'Crazy '....it works both ways , when CRAZY makes me HAPPY , when CRAZY makes me SAD !! ....

* Creating Crazy ideas to make crazy blog posts :)
* Driving in the rains with a hitch in my Car breaks :)
* Fighting over the last piece of chocolate with my 5 yr old daughter :)
* Forgetting that I m Th....(oops my age!) :)
* Whistling in the movie theatre when the scenes can not contain me :)
* When the Camera is looking at me, and I got to think of a new pose and smile:)
* When I cannot decide what to wear :(
* When My calls are not answered :(
* When my Bday is forgotten :(
* When my lipstick wears off :(
* When I drop the mayyonaise while eating a burger :(
* Everytime I' m heard when I m talking in SILENCE:)
* To see my two dolls ( daughters) bonding :)
* To be in matching colours as a family fr an accassion :)
* GALS night OUT :)
* Doing Salsa :)
* Reconnecting with old friends and making new :)
* Being IN LOVE :).....WITH LIFE !!

The CUPPY CAKE SONG

2008-06-29T02:28:00.009+05:30

This Video is one of my favourites and It aids me to feed my toddler some quick bites ...also it does wonders to my adrenaline :)!.....Hope you enjoy it as much as I do .

Strawberry Shortcake Lyrics
Cuppy Cake Lyrics

ALL IN A SMILE :))

2008-06-27T01:27:00.007+05:30

As I MUSED over my thoughts , a persistent feeling kept creeping . Lil' did I understand what it was, till I saw my 9 month old sleep by my side. Eureka ! its her SMILE !! Oh, she Smiled in her sleep over and over again ...how Very contagious indeed! I kept smiling back at her, did not matter even if she was asleep. And then, I realised that one curve ,can bring about more curves and more and more curves :)))))
That persistent feeling was about GIVING away a lil' Extra of Myself. I needed to Vent out.. Why did I hold back? Is it such an effort to release kind words of appreciation, without any occassion? Or does my 'I'( egocentric) need a dash of flattering speech, untill my very own 'I' can Express its innocence?
I could have parted with an extra HUG to my daughters, Some more warm gestures to my loved ones, Few Kind words to my staff, a Lil compassion to mother nature ....and not forgetting having thanked the Almighty once again, more deeply to have added one more day in my Life, to ...LEARN, ACKNOWLEDGE and IMPLEMET the Lessons being taught to me in their own Beautiful ways.
I Learn today that its 'ALL IN A SMILE' ...and it takes, just YOU to follow ur heart , though leave the 'I' behind ...so , there I go...FOLLOWING MY HEART ... but I shall take it, ONE DAY AT A TIME!

Conversations.....In the Dark!!

2008-06-26T02:29:00.006+05:30

Alas ! Slumber...not yet , not now , not untill the conversations justify the quest of her rethoric .
Something Amiss, some Laughters not shared, some Tears futile. Complaining ....Nah!
Mourning...Yes! They are Two Bodies, One Soul . 'BEST FRIENDS ', I hear them -labelled .
Was it an Illusion? Was it Real? Words, used as weapons, Battlefield is their anguishing HEARTS.
"TIME - come and prove urself as the HEALER"! shouts the SILENCE in the quiver...
Eyes Wide Open, The Night seems SO LONG...as the ECHO of their CONVERSATION blatants in the DARK!

GrAtitUdE!!!

2008-06-25T02:43:00.006+05:30

Blessed Me , I chose the womb...

Treasuring She , nourishing me..

A matter of Time ,and I shall forget ..

From Where I Came to Where I shall Go...

Till, I meet my Soul who is Nowhere... Gone!

LIFE ! oh Mine ,

I acknowledge thou...

Shepherd into me the flow of ur LOVE.

Escort me from Sins of Vanity...

Connive me to Chose Right from Wrong!

LIFE! oh Mine,

Absorb me in you...

Make me benevolent I pray to you..

And, to ALL of Those ....

Who MAKETH ME...

I Bow , I Render my Gratitude forever....

to YOU !!!