There was once, a Princess, who lived in a Fairy Land...She welcomed One and All to enter her WORLD and witness her LIFE! That,which she was in LOVE with...that which was KING SIZE!!!
Can I stay HERE?. Or move on?.... Should we, or not...? What Was, That IS...will it be ?.... Let Me be, Let US be... In the NOW, Future is but a mystery! I am, yes - Content... why fret, then for what will be? 'Status Quo' is good enough.... what will be, will be.....!
All seemed fine and there’s a broad smile on my face. Suddenly, something inside bothering, and why would it?? Why should it?? Trying to decipher... I let it, thought it would subside. I knew I was happy, I knew I had done it....OOuch again! but yet...it nudged me, bugged me, din leave me.
It was my day, a special day...I had worked hard for it...And they knew it, they know me. Just one sms or one call would make it so much more meaningful. I waited, it did not come. I said,“nevermind, maybe it’s not important enough for them, doesn’t mean, anything”.But, then why did it not leave me? Why should I care? God, it still is bothering!! And that is why this post!
Expectations and More....
A simple ‘hi’ when u see me around
If words are too much, a Smile would do...
When, I m lost....ask me why
Don look at ur diary, before we have to meet
Or forget to call, when I want you to wish me luck!
Small gestures, have large meanings...
Am I expecting too much, if I only expect you to read??
Yes, I am back!...I missed u too - BLOG :). Though, u'll be jealous to know, that I went on a VACATION!. We were I, HE and US :p US = My two daughters and moi!!. I couldn't believe I was one of them, forgot that I was there to tame them, but I decided to spoil them. And HE, spoiled Me in return!!:))) Thankyou for being U and letting us BE crazzy, lazzy and jazzy!!I feel overwhelmed, and rejeuvenated....only hoping that I did not deplete u of ur senses:)) What a Vacation, uhh uhh....let me exaggerate, I'd say an ECSTATIC GETAWAY!... I haven't been able to sleep since we've got back, I loved being a Child again, with U AND THEM:))
Thank you - MY FAMILY!
I LOVE YOU !!!
"Without His love I can do nothing, with His love there is nothing I cannot do.."
And a youth said, - Speak to us of Friendship! And he answered, saying: Your friend is your needs answered. He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.
And he is your board and your fireside. For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.
When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor do you withhold the "ay". And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart; For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed. When you part from your friend, you grieve not; For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit. For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.
And let your best be for your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill? Seek him always with hours to live. For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness. And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures. For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.
Sunday usually is a soulful day, where MOMENTS (hmmm.. I decide NOT to dramatise them ) touch me in the form of music and songs. And there I was .... I found myself browsing through the lyrics and U tube of the song 'Aaj Jaane Ki Zid Na Karo ' a song sung by Pakistani singer ' Farida Khanum. I came across an interesting u tube, where a girl tries her hands with this song on a guitar, Pls pardon her sense of the singer as she passes it off to Begum Akhtar :P. I m also adding the original version here, as it is where MY HEART trully lies :)....Also, an English Lyric translation for my 'Angrez' Cousins and Friends, help them feel the depth of the song!( Pls retain some patience as the video downloads) Enjoy!!!... "Aaj jaane ki zid na karo!"
Aaj jaane ki zid na karo Yunhi pehloo mein baithe raho Aaj jaane ki zid na karo Hai mar jaayenge, hum to lut jaayenge Aisi baatein kiya na karo Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Tum hi socho zara, kyun na roke tumhe Jaan jaati hai jab uth ke jaate ho tum Tumko apni qasam jaan-e-jaan Baat itni meri maan lo Aaj jaane ki zid na karo Yunhi pehloo mein baithe raho Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Waqt ki qaid mein zindagi hai magar Chand ghadiyan yehi hain jo aazad hain Inko khokar mere jaan-e-jaan Umr bhar na taraste raho Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Kitna maasoom rangeen hai yeh sama Husn aur ishq ki aaj mein raaj hai Kal ki kisko khabar jaan-e-jaan Rok lo aaj ki raat ko Aaj jaane ki zid na karo Yunhi pehloo mein baithe raho Aaj jaane ki zid na karo
Translation-
Don't insist on leaving today Keep sitting beside me. Don't insist on leaving today else I shall die, I shall be looted. Please don't talk like this. Don't insist on leaving today.
Give it a thought, why shouldn't stop you? When you leave, life goes out of me. For your own sake, beloved Just listen to this one plea, don't insist on leaving today, keep sitting beside me. Don't insist on leaving today.
My life is trapped in time's bars, just a few solitary moments are free. And if you lose them too, my beloved, you shall keep craving forever. Don't insist on leaving today, keep sitting beside me. Don't insist on leaving today.
What an innocent hueful meeting this is of beauty and love, they rule today. Who knows what lies in tomorrow, Let's make this night stand still. Don't insist on leaving today, keep sitting beside me. Don't insist on leaving today.
Yes, I've been in my comfort zone lately ...actually, I thought I talked too much, and was way too vocal of every emotion that I felt. I decided to stay quiet untill I came across something which suggested 'The Power of EMOTIONS'. And to my rescue, the matter said that people who do not voice their emotions, who rather escape and do not witness how they feel to the fullest are emotionally NUMB! "Thank God, I told myself, someone understands how I feel! " And who wants to be NUMB ?..Nah, not me! And there I start to Yap..to the universe :) I know I m ONLY thirty! ( oops, yes i said 'ONLY' )but thats how I FEEL EMOTIONALLY:!And I 've come to believe that the ones that are emotionally expressive are the ones who do live life to the fullest! My BEST friend Jini says so rightly '" ONE LIFE,AV "!! Ok, all I m trying is, to suggest that its not such a bad thing to EXPRESS, infact why pent up ? How much does it take to Feel,Acknowledge, and Release the triggers? The only risk factor is that the Angry emotions will Break a Head or TWO :p! But the Happy ones will bring more happiness ,smiles ,and more LOVE! ..Worth it, right? Hence, I hereby decide and call upon ALL who resonate with me ...that lets shake ourselves and Not stay COMFORTABLY NUMB! EXPRESS..EXPRESS ...EXPRESS ....:) Hope u've covered health insurance though :))!!
Here is a song for those who are..comfortably numb!
I remember how Enchanting it was..when it dawned upon me , the relevance of my name!
Avni, means the ‘Earth’. How consciously The ‘Gaia’ (earth goddess in ancient Greek Religion) beckoned upon my subconscious!
And in the pursuit of following my Identity, I landed here…amongst ALL!! ☺
